Day to day life

Town Tomorrow

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 01:07:20 +0200

Wish me luck with finding a saturday job as i hit town tomorrow (Y)
I thought that once i moved i would have the internet, which i do on the main computer, but not on my laptop...meaning i had to sit an re-type all of my CV but its done now and saved so its all good!

In really need a job! To pay for things like my tuition- dance lessons, singing lessons and i still need to find out where i can get them! Plus i really want to start piano lessons and like a drama group or drama lessons-hopefully to do a little speech therapy.

On top of that, i want like loads of TV Series on DVD, two pairs of boots i spotted for £10 and i need some more make-up as mines allll gone!

-And...i'll need new clothes for college

URGH! -Awnser me this...why, when you have money is there nothing you need or want...but yet when you do not have money all there is, is stuff you want/need.

dear me!

-x Ophelia-rose x-

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2/7/08

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 00:53:31 +0200

Moving!

So It was confimed to me that i am moving to Birkenhead, in the north west.

So i am ennoying, this is my 14th house move and the college i attend will be my 9th school.

Speaking of college, i am ennoyed becuase they might not do my courses and they might not be taking in people any more! Urgh i went on the website, and its not looking good!

Usually, i would see this move as a fresh start...a chance to meet new people and grow. But not this time, becuase i am so settled in my small village here! I have the most amazing friends a teen girl could ask for- reliable, funny, strong, depenable, brilliant, crazy and loverly!

There was a group of like 23 of us, and i know only 5 out of the group were staying togther at out 6th form, but the rest only live like the smallest walk away..its different moving like two hours away! I have never felt as settled or had as much fun before and i am so scared i won't get that back!

Its no use ranting to my mother, shes seen me cry but she can't do anything about it. Theres no jobs there and she needs money to live as she keeps saying! Its my step-dad whom i'm pissed at! He has the money to help my mother and he refused! there not even divorced yet- but he said you've maid your bed, now you can lie in it! But he was the one that cheated on her and after she split with him, he made himself out to be the victim! So he wouldn't help us, but went out and lent £600 to friends to they could go out drinking and booked himself and all inclusive week away in Greece what a tit! He would rather see hims own Son homeless than help!

So...i have to say goodbye! I'm looking at the positives a fresh start at college, no preconcieved favourites and all that!

And i know me and my friends will keep in touch, its hard and time consuming at times but i am dtermined to! What with text, msn, myspace, e-mail and letters nowerdays there is no excuse not too.

-and i will always have the memories of the last 18 months the perfect memories- well nothing perfect lasts forever and although i am scared i will never get something as good as what i have here again, i know i will just have to grin and bare it...

and what will be, will be right?

-x Ophelia-rose x-

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Girls??

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 04:38:17 +0200

Whats the deal with teen girls?

-I mean i don't understand why we all act the way we do.

I feel like i try and be nice to some of them but they are just plain nasty.

I'm not being niiave, i know that they are nasty girls ofcourse, but i have been working with two girls for a year in performing arts and they seemed genuially friendly, in all our other lessons there funny and pleasant. So why not in performing arts right?

Turns out the two girls (who are ofcourse both the teachers favourites) are two of the sneakiest girls i have ever met! They both spend there lunch and break times in the theatre talking to the teachers about other students! I have been there and heard the teachers badmouth people within the class and talk about their levels of talent in a negative way!

Now...i'm no sap, ofcourse people in the performing industry are two faced fakes...but this is a teacher! I swear they are not allowed to have favourites or discuss other students situations and the schools situation with students!

The two girls whom i thought were my friends (i use the term friends lightly- more like i thought they were my aquatinces, two people i could work with well within the class) have been talking about me behind my back the whole time! I've just recived the fakest message in the world from one of them and its made me so angry!

Now, i didn't create this blog to be bitchy...but i need to have a little rant about them and let off steam.

The thing is, they are favouritised (one more than the other) but they aren't the most talented out of the group and everyone says it! The favourite out of the two has so much confidence- which i respect her for as a performer, but she is wooden as an actress, nasaly as a singer and weak as a dancer. Shes a very pretty face but unfortunatly just that! She doesn't even contribute good ideas within the group! Her best friend is the opposite- a brilliant actress, and has clever ideas but she tries to sing saprano songs way out of her legue, puts on a werid singing voice and has no confidence!

They are given this critique so many times by audience members from our school, sometimes behind there back, but a lot of the time too their face...and yet they are still treated differently to the rest!

I need to suck it up-well thats what some say as thats what its like in the industry...but i think not! Theres no way i'm standing for it as them constantly being put first is interrupting and preventing my learning and growth as a performer! I'm telling you now...its going to stop! I am not doing another two years like the last two...

Its time for change!

-x Ophelia-rose x-

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Sleep

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 03:55:42 +0200

Its funny how quickly my sleep patterns can adjust by accident, yet when i want to change them myself...it seems impossible!

This all started when i finished college. No more getting up at 7am, no more going to bed at 10:30 no more routine! Its killing me. I stayed up late one night to watch some stuff on TV, and slept in late the next day. Then as i slept in late, i couldn't sleep the next night so i got up and ended up watching whatever crap is on TV! -Thankgod for TV Choice on Demand thats all i'm saying.

Trying to get back into a established routine is proving hard to do! Especially as i don't have any routine during the day, as i don't have anything to do! No money to go out with friends, and no jobs anywhere within the suitable travel range available!

I guess i'll just have to perserve, force myself to get up early on morning even though i will only have a few hours sleep. That does not sound appealing! I bet the one day i did manage to do that i would end up snoozing in the afternoon, and be no better off when it came to night. I don't want to spend the next eight weeks doing everything by moonlight thankyou very much.

I find it quite amusing...perhaps its slightly ironic, how i used to moan at having a rough time to go to bed & Especially at having a time to get up(that i felt was far too early) and now when i can do as i please its irriating the crap out of me!

Well its looking light out, perhaps it will soon be time for me to hit the sheets!

-x Ophelia-rose x-

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